hmmm.....

finalli e yr 2006 is coming 2 an end le.....abt 11 hrs more bahx....

it's tym 2 give a summary abt how's yr 2006 have been 4 mi.....

jus one word wil summarise tis yr 4 mi...n it's 'sux'

tis is e yr in which i've let a lot of pple dwn esp my frens(U NOE WHU U R) in which i deeply regretted....i'm sorry.....

n tis is also e yr in which there's way too much unhappy events esp frm e month of oct onwards....

haiz.....

i'll never 4get those events de.....

haiz....

n tis is also e yr in which i nearly die on christmas dae where a car jus managed 2 stop a few CM beside mi while i was cycling across e road....perhaps my tym is not yet up bahx...cos up till now i still couldn't believe hw i managed 2 survive it....

but anyway....

i'm looking 4ward 2 a great new yr...all i ask 4 is jus a simple life....

i dun ask 4 much....

jus wanna b happy everydae....

dat'll b my aim 4 e yr 2007....

as well as 2 find U....

still waiting 4 U 2 appear in my life...

dat's all le...going 2 wrk soon....

HAPPY NEW YR!!!!...





1:32 PM

haiz......

dunno wad 2 write lehz....
been wrking OT for e last two daes frm 9am-10pm n 6.30am-5pm for sat n sun respectively....den 2molo still nid wrk frm 8am-10pm.....omg...haiz...

while at wrk...
it's been a long long tym since i last saw someone smile or happy de face le....
mayb u haf done so n i didn't c it bahx.....
u noe whu u r bahx...
i dun care if u c mi as a stranger or wad...as long as u're happi can le....
i'm starting 2 accept e fact dat we're strangers nw le...
nth matters 2 mi anymore le...

Am i reali happy??..
e ans is no...though i'll try 2 b happy on e surface laughing lyk mad etc......
but deep dwn mi...it hurts....i'm still unable 2 walk out of my past.......

when will i find e real mi??....
i noe i haf e abilities 2 achieve at least some success in things dat i do if i wrk hard...
but i tend 2 take risks....
n rite nw...
i'm in no mood 2 do things le....
except....
dunno....

haiz..... 9:57 AM

sianz......jus wake up....haiz....tink of ytd de maths paper jiu sianz le....onli noe how 2 do one pathetic question worth 3 marks....haiz......i still cant successfully get over e events in which dat happens over e past few mths esp those dat happen in e month of OCT.....haiz.....tis yr is not my year at all........mood still not back yet....haiz....exploding any moment liao le......trying 2 find myself back...haiz.....dunno wad 2 sae le.....gonna go wrk soon le....... 7:30 AM

gd morning everyone....2dae having my last paper le....n it's maths frm 1400-1530.....omg....sure die de.....haiz....but never mind after dat...it's e 2 wks of study break le...it's tym i relax myself n make full use of e tym 2 tink thru things le......haiz........ytd nite meet shiou 4 cycling at ard 8pm at our usual place.....den after dat we cycle 2 punggol den go n slack at e place near punggol plaza...den in e end...we saw pple playing bb den we join in for one match lorx...sianz....soon after e match have started...i went for a loose ball n slip n fell at e glass patch at the end of e court on e opp side...sianz....though there was no pain ytd..but now....starting 2 feel quite pain in my left de shoulder liao le....cham....den after dat meet jack at his hse dere 2 slack lorx.....den slack until ard 1am den i dash back hme while shiou left at ard 12.30am........haha.....2molo still nid work frm 9am-10pm.....sianz....den on sun also wrk frm 9am-5pm............dat's all for now le...let's hope dat i wont lose my temper while wrking bahx.....haiz....my mood have not been gd over e past few mths....haiz... 8:10 AM

argd!!.....it gettin pain ard my e area jus above my knees.....wtf...its hurts....there's pain in every step dat i walk nw......


haiz......jus wake up after slping 4 abt 1 hr.....tis morning de test for eg2004 sure die one....onli noe how 2 do 3 marks de question....den after dat reach hme at 10am......


sianz.... gonna gib my veri best 4 e marketing de test later....I MUST GET AN A for it.......nid go study 4 it le...b4 leave hme at ard 4pm to go 4 e test which starts at 5pm.....

takecare everyone... 2:50 PM

sianz.....

2dae did veri badly 4 my test...onli noe how 2 do 2 pathetic multiple choice questions 4 e whole paper....sure die de lorx....haiz.....but nvm...wad's done is done....

sianz...

2molo still got 2 papers..one is automatic control n the other one is introduction to marketing....n i've onli haf e confidence 4 e marketing de paper....i'll try my veri best 4 it de......tired n no mood....dat's wad best describe mi now......

gd nite pple.... 10:04 PM

sianz....jus wake up.....later still gt a test...from 4.30pm-6pm for e module eg2133 on electrical machines.......sianz....sure die de lorx....den later meeting ken n bao kun in sch 2 study.....sianz......haiz.......ytd nite i finally go running le..it's been a long long tym since i go run.....overall it's still okie....ytd was such a bad dae 4 mi...haiz....dun wish 2 sae it out le......forgive n forget...dat's wad i'm doing nw...

i've finally sought out my thoughts abt one thing le...

it's okie if u treat mi as a stranger...but as long as u're happy abt it...
it's fine wif mie....
seeing u smiling frm afar,i feel happy 4 u....
if we're meant 2 b frens again....
fate will definitely causes it 2 happen....
n i believe in it.....

dat's all 4 nw.....later den update bahx.... 9:02 AM

haiz....so long didnt post le....cos dunno wad 2 sae le...all i noe is dat....e past few daes is not wad i reali enjoy esp ytd n tis morning.....haiz....i HATE YR 2006....it's a bad yr for mi....haiz....i'm hoping 4 a gd yr next yr...where e happy events outweigh those unhappy events tis yr...haiz.....


having a test 2molo.....but no mood 2 study.....haiz.......
am i doom 2 fail??



when can i find someone whu reali understands mi??....
where r u????
i nid u..... 11:33 AM

failure....dat's e best word 2 describe mi tis yr......i'm a great big failure.....my nos of failure in studies,relationship n almost everything else far outweights my success tis yr.... haiz...... dunno wad 2 sae le....going 2 sch later 4 e eg2132 de lab test...tink i'll b able 2 get gd results 4 dat bahx........ i nid my mood back asap n onli someone can help mi 2 solve it........ haiz... 9:13 AM

haiz......2 summarise e whole of last wk.....it sucks.....my mood still not back...is fate playing a cruel joke on mi tis yr??....haiz....y is it dat things seems 2 b going against mie....tis is one sad yr 4 mi....going 2 wrk is no longer happy 4 mi despite my efforts 2 hide my sadness inside mie n b happy...y must U show mi dat face when u c mi everytym, do u noe how much it hurts mie??..have u all try 2 understand mi??.......i noe my mistakes n i'll try 2 change....NO ONE IS PERFECT IN TIS WORLD...INCLUDING MIE...if u spot any faults in mie....jus sae it out la....so dat i'll noe n wont repeat it again....i admit dat i cant 4get u depsite my efforts...i've been tryin n trying....but hw long can i run away frm e reality???...i reali miss e period when we've jus known each other...
-2 e mi in my tag-

I'M SORRY....i'm reali sry 4 all my mistakes in e past...
.........................................................

nw looking 4ward 2 e dinner on wed at amk as well as e gathering on fri wif my seniors at my supervisor de hse.......dat's wad i'm looking 4ward to...hope i can my mood back....i dun wish 2 end e yr on a sad note....

haiz.....

when will i find someone who reali understands mie??... 9:44 AM